Life.
Thursday, December 23, 2010 |9:44 PM
What's life without some ups and of course the downs. :/
fought big on winter solstice night with the hub.
Still kinda angry rite now.
but yeaaa...
what kind of a couple don't fight? hmmm.
But I swear, it wouldn't be that easy anymore the next time.
cause you know,
I'm a fucking evil bitch, I can get as crazy as I want. be very careful dear.
I LOVE YOU． (meanmeanlaugh)
muacks.
Baby....
Sunday, December 19, 2010 |12:17 AM
Being a mommy is undeniable, tough.
I don't really have the right to say this.
Well, for baby's first month i didn't really take care of him myself.
On the 2nd month right till 4th month,
I was on my own, and 2 months passed by just as quickly.
And I put my baby in the care of my aunt.
I only bring him back every weekends.
So I was really doing an easy job. :p
But...
As a parent,
I won't possibly be feeding him, putting him to sleep only.
I need to educate him.
And this is IMPORTANT.
Feeding him good education on his first few starting years,
Defines him.
Characteristics, personalities, his interests and much more.
And I realise,
how great was my daddy and mommy.
At least I'm not a fucking retard or some bad tempered bitch(ahemahemIambadtemperedsometimesforgivemelol).
I do think about this sometimes,
(i wonder if the daddy does this)
How shall I speak to my son?
Does this kind of things come to a person naturally?
Of how to be a parent?
Well, seeing I am a young parent and maybe me myself isn't very mature.
So, shall i become my son's friend?
But how?
I always pictured scenes in my head,
when one day, my son learns to run around and causing mischief.
shall I scold him like how some parents do?
Or shall I do it some way, explaining to him this is not right.
:S
You know baby,
Mommy hope that you grow up into one fine little man.
With good manners,
Sharing with mommy your little secrets,
Making many small friends,
Maybe one cute little girlfriend or two,
A young little man, that mommy will be so proud of you. :)
Mommy promise,
Mommy will always listen to what you have to say,
And you too, have to listen to what mommy says.
Mommy will try my best to be your best friend forever.
You should understand,
your daddy(baba) is trying hard to act like a MAN.
but baby, don't misunderstand.
Daddy is not being harsh.
He just don't know how.
Forgive daddy alrite?
daddy is a newbie. xD
Let's just show him how,
and you be friends with him too.
Because, daddy loves you just like mommy does.
You'll know when you grow up and become a daddy yourself. :)
Baby,
Mommy wants you to grow up strong,
And live a happy and healthy life.
Baby,
Mommy loves you.
Mommy will always be there for you,
For whole of mommy's life.
习惯？依赖？
Friday, December 10, 2010 |1:14 AM
结婚已经一年另两个月了。
实际上，从感觉方面来说。
我们只不过是从2天见一次面的关系，
转换到同住一个屋檐底下的关系。
这么简单而已。
结婚不结婚，真的，完全不是一回事。
那只是一张将我们合法化的纸。
我有时会想，为什么？
1天里，如果我们任何一个都没有外出的话，
1天24小时的每一分钟都溺在一起。
没有哪一个会有“怎么每天都是你”的念头。
好怪哦。。。
会不会就是一种习惯了？
反正也没什么不好，
虽然是没以前小情人般的甜言蜜语，
但是老公偶尔流露出的疼惜，包容，宠溺 （哪怕就是那么一丁点）
我还是感受得到的。
甚至比以前恋爱时的甜还更甜。 xD
所以呢。。。
老公我知道你还是爱我滴，
老婆也是一样爱你。
（爱铭铭多一点，哇咔咔）
<3
小红灯
Wednesday, December 8, 2010 |1:33 AM
我即将要写的这些东西，真的是发自内心，很想要跟大家分享的很重要的事情。
就是女生啊，以后坐月子的时候，
真的要抓紧时机，大补特补。
把以前不好的身体趁此黄金时期调理过来。
真的！很重要！
就比如说我自己的例子。
近几个月啊，就是生了小孩过后。
身体上，真的。。。有在衰退。
觉得自己好像变老了还是什么的。
尤其是脑子，好像都不大灵光。
我虽然坐月子的时候大家都说我有补到。
说我气色好什么的，可是最了解的还是自己。
那一个月间，我其实还可以吃更多进补的东西。
（可是真的很难吃，而且每天吃真的好可怕）
虽然有时候是有点假装说“哎哟，身体不舒服。头好晕。”之类的。
但这些话不是空穴来风。
是真的有这种感觉才会有这样的话说的出来啊。
有时候是真的严重头晕哦，走路都软绵绵的那种。
然后还要靠壁，不然会整个人倒下去的感觉。
有时就是只能坐着，站起来走几步路都会晕到不行。
也或许是因为我前三个月装了IUCD在体内，是一种避孕器。
这种避孕器呢，就是会使到大部分女性的月经来量增加很多。
而我本身就是有些许贫血。再加每个月这么大出血身体真的受不了吧。
我真的有一点后悔为什么要装那个。 -.-
真的很痛苦！
月经来量大大增加，然后来的时候还会比以前都痛苦！
我应该选避孕药啊！
现在的避孕药超好的，副作用少。
找到适合自己的避孕药，别说副作用，好处还多着呢！
好懊恼哦，为什么我都不做多点research！
还一心想到像我这种粗神经的人一定会忘记吃。 -.-
唉，算了。花了一笔钱那么辛苦装进去，才不要又跑去拿出来。
还有就是，我的脑部操作方面呢。 -.-
差了很多！
我甚至真的记不起来，我以前在中学的那些欢乐时光。
真的，看着照片我都觉得好陌生，完全没回忆。
去当兵的那段回忆也已经被我的大脑自动permanently deleted了。
我已经完全认不出以前跟我同营的人。除了少数那几个。
而且现在的我很多时候都会在那边放空。
整个人是空洞的，不知道自己想什么，要干什么。
难道这就是大家都说的，母亲怀宝宝时会把自己身上所有最好的东西都传送到宝宝那里。
（包括脑力？）
还有啊，（这是刚刚几分钟前发生的）
夸张到，本来扑躺在床上好好的。
就起来上厕所，也就那几步路嘛。
结果我走走走，走到厕所的门口越走就越抓不住平衡，
双脚和意志力都不听指唤，整个人就是往右边倒。
还好双手还可以抓着门框，然后靠着旁边的柜子，
脚就是完全使不出力，一点一点软倒，坐在地上那个角落。
然后就又在那边发呆，放空。完全都没有一点力站起来。
还要老公过来把我整个人抱起来我才能够顺利上厕所。
（感觉上我好像在讲中邪的经历）
所以各位朋友女士小姐们，
千万要记住，管他好吃不好吃，恶心不恶心，饱还是不饱。
吃了再说！我指的是进补的东西，不是乱吃。
补到他够够力的！
不然就真的会很惨！
我就真的惨了。
要等到生下一个贝比，是要等4-5年吗？
那我会不会就剩一具干尸了啊？==
然后怀她10个月，还要再把身上东西都给她。
不就所剩无几了吗？
那一个月之内把这些东西都补回来，可能吗？
不要自己吓自己了。。
睡觉去吧。 -.-
bye~
terrible night.
Thursday, December 2, 2010 |9:48 PM
I woke up yesterday and i keep scratching my leg,
There was a bum so i thought it was just another mosquito bite as usual.
=.=
I get bitten by mosquito at least 8times a day, so... yea. ._.
and to my surprise,
it wasn't mosquito.
My allergy skin,
has come up with a few lumps of red bum,
which looks really like mosquito bite,
but it will spread throughout that part of my body.
Erm, what they call in chinese "feng mok".
It was super itchy yes,
so I scratch them whenever i feel very itchy, tak boleh tahan.
Was really boiling my mind about WHAT DID I ACTUALLY ATE THAT IT CAME OUT AGAIN? -.-
And, I wasn't able to find an answer.
From my experience,
(I have this trouble since i was a kid)
It wouldn't really last tht long,
A little while in the afternoon it should be gone.
So I didn't do anything to it.
And yes, it did fade away.
But the nightmare begun,
just about midnite,
was resting and watching PPS about some gameshow.
My body starts to react by its own again.
My back was super itchy,
and after scratching for some time,
I knew something was wrong.
I asked hubby to check out what's wrong with my back.
And he said,
"eww, it just looks like your leg this morning."
I'm like “huh?!"
But thn i told myself,
It would be gone when I sleep.
I din't do anything and continue watching the show.
But the red big dots started spreading all over my body,
I'm like an effing baboon keep scratching and complaining to the hub.
I finally tried to sleep at 3am,
But I think the time I really sleep is only on 4am,
And thn itch woke me up from sleeping,
I could hear the muslim prayers, so it should be 5-6am.
And after a while I feel into slumber again.
But not for long,
I woke up and could clearly hear my neighbor going out to work,
She goes out around 7am.
I am not sure Whether was I woke up by the noise she always does whn she go out to work,
Or my body is bothering me.
Then this time I couldn't fall asleep that easy anymore,
Cause I could clearly hear my skin crying how itchy they are,
It really drives me crazy.
I was like a fish, turning and tossing on the bed.
I guess hub din really sleep well too. Oops sorry.
Turn and toss till I was so tired，
I don't rmb wad time i slept again,
until a phone call from the sis-in-law.
we were suppose to go out to a warehouse sale for baby clothes tgt,
But i really couldn't stand, So we ffk'ed her.
11.30am, my father-in-law came,
to harvest the rambutans behind my house. -.-
I wanted to sleep somemore,
I glimpsed on my leg and I was like
O________________________O
I need to go to a doctor.
Changed and drove myself to the clinic,
with already a few ppl waiting to see the doctor.
Luckily it wasn't long.
Went into the doctors room,
He asked "what's wrong, lady?"
I sat and rolled up my long pants,
He was like O__________________________O
"what did you eat to make urself this bad lady?"
I told him i had this problem since young,
And I'd never touched those seafood tht I'm allergic to,
AND THE MAIN POINT, MY BRAIN BURST AND I STILL COULDN'T THINK OF WHAT ON EARTH DID I TOUCHED THAT MADE ME LIKE THAT.
The doctor said,
"ok.. but for allergy, there isn't an effective medicine to heal it. And seeing your situation, I could give you those caramel(thats what they call but im not sure wheher it is this caramel) to apply on the skin to help reduce the itchiness, But i wonder will it be enough for you. Haha.."
It wasn't funny ok, u try and see. you couldn't sleep whole night and your very own skin is killng you. -.-
And I came to you because that bottle of chemical IS JUST WHAT I CAME FOR!
I say, "yes, I want that please. and erm most possible I need some medicine to kill the itch."
He said, "Yes, I will give u the med, You want me to give u a jab? that's really fast and effective."
Seeing as my situation, that was the best solution but...
INJECTION is what i scared most. T_T
Anyway, I agreed to it.
And yea, my arm was so numb the whole day today. T_T
GOOD NEWS IS!
Stupid allergy fade away jor. YAY HOORAY~
I think i shouldn't get so happy first．
Ｓｈｏｏ ｓｈｏｏ ａｌｌｅｒｇｙ．
ｐｌｓ ｄｏｎｔ ｂｏｔｈｅｒ ｍｅ ｅｖｅｒ ａｇａｉｎ． T_T
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