bad reception
Sunday, May 30, 2010 |3:36 PM
Something went wrong.
Don't know which, or maybe both.
It's kinda hard to communicate.
And there were times that I think stuffs are better to be kept to myself.
It has never been like this.
Something is missing.
I want it fixed.
I feel so bad deep inside me.
I guess same goes to that side.
Maybe it's time to spend some time to fix this.
Maybe it got a little rusty,
some lubricator could do the trick.
I feel so sorry and regret to have said harsh words and acting strong, when all I need is a warm and gentle hug.
Where is that purring meow in me?
Eaten by a roaring lioness?
I need to release my stress somewhere else, and not on you anymore.
My words, they hurt you and me together.
Double the pain in me compared to yours.
Don't worry, I'll return you your purring meow very soon.
anticipation
Tuesday, May 25, 2010 |6:56 PM
2 more days...
baby is gonna go to my aunt's house.
hmmm, happy and saddening at the same time.
happy.. Cos, I'm finally free to have my own time,
to do things I wanna do.
sad.. Cos I'm so gonna miss my little angel.
Miss the times I'm 24-7 with him.
But no worries..
I'm still gonna spend my time with him every weekend.
大同小异
Saturday, May 22, 2010 |10:44 PM
哈哈。
看着某个综艺节目，
原来大家婚后生活，
都是一样的！哈哈哈！
只是觉得很有趣啦。。。
其实，如果对象找对了，
结婚应该是很好玩的一个游戏。
而且是玩一辈子很好玩的游戏。<3
执子之手，与子偕老。
大概就这意思吧。哈哈！
我亲爱的老公，
就让我们携手玩这个游戏玩到我俩都白发斑斑吧！
Muacks, I love you.. I really do. :D
深切的体会
Wednesday, May 19, 2010 |11:10 PM
终于了解发愁时为何特别的渴望酒精。
睡不着的晚上，来点酒，真的，爽！很帮助睡眠。
但不行过量。
最近烦恼有点无处发泄。
不太敢跟自己的枕边人说，怕会使得他跟我一起烦恼。 >_<
hmmmm,
总之这个世界。。。
真的，不太见单。 :)
笑笑的面对吧！
一切会更美好！
耶！ V(^_^)
too much
Tuesday, May 11, 2010 |12:39 AM
do not read this.
Just need to write this down to make myself feel better.
Am i too much to be complaining?
Am i a bitch to be fussing about this?
Damn i hate this feeling.
Were we like that before?
I don't want things to change.
It may not look like it on the surface.
But oh well, everything is different on the outside now.
Fuck me for being a sickening sentimental Virgo bitch.
Fuck me for being too much to blame.
Fuck me for swearing like hell lately.
Fuck the period making me all pmsed and tempered like a mad bitch.
Fuck those bacteria or virus or whatsoever microorganisms makin me fuckin sick.
Fuck this sohai brainless post.
millions of zillions.
Sunday, May 9, 2010 |4:24 PM
Behold...
Ok, this would be a very emo and erm complicated and erm psycho(?) post.
I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
I've actually live my life like some rubbish.
Sighs.
There isn't any achievement to be really showing off I've made for all my life.
I think that I'm a smart ass, in fact, I'm bloody proud of it.
Come to think of it, that's so shallow of me.
I sure hope I was another person instead of this me.
Well, one must bear the responsible of what one has done.
身为女儿，我……很惭愧。
我曾经是个很叛逆的女儿。
但，说实在的，再怎么叛逆，我的心始终向着家里。
我曾经埋怨父母，曾经觉得他们好讨厌。
可是最后的最后，
我是多么的爱你们。
我始终牵挂着你们。
因为我们的不慎，
必须结为夫妻，
必须从家里嫁出去。
你们的不舍远远超越我对你们的不舍。
我不应该让你们如此的担心我。
虽然距离不是南北两极这么远，
但是我是多么的渴望能与你们天天相聚。
在此希望你们健健康康。
爸爸也不要再那么固执了。
去看医生好吗？
至少自己的身体要健康，才不会受那么多苦。
There's these feelings deep within me.
Now that things are all settled,
I should be preparing on my upcoming life.
I need to plan my life accordingly rite now.
A lot of stuffs to consider.
I would be all so well, if I weren't a lazy bum.
Sighs.
There isn't much problem actually,
I have the supports I need.
However there are still some things I need to take into account,
and start worrying myself.
It would be a waste of time and energy to worry actually.
But too bad,
I'm a virgoan,
Virgo just loves to think.
Actually I didn't really express all I need to say.
Words just isn't enough.
In mandarin, 百感交集啊。
ok, so till the end of this post.
I didn't really say waht I wanted to say.
ohhh, crap. -.-
Think before you throw.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010 |9:32 PM
I'm back~~~!!!
From the Redang Islands.
Well, compare to the last trip I went there,
The corals are all dead, and half dead. -.-
The amount of the fishes has reduced so much.
I even saw graveyards of bottles,
or bottle "corpses" floating on the sea.
I also played banana boat.
The waves were so big,
it was different from the time I played back in Langkawi Islands.
The waves threw us all in the middle of the air,
We have to hold on so tight to avoid being thrown into the waters.
And now I have muscle strains. :(
So pain.
The bus trip was also a pain in the ass. -.-
8-9 hours in the bus. My God @_@
Goint to bring baby back home tomorrow afternoon.
I doubt I will be fully recover from the trip's pain,
But oh well, I miss my baby.
Miss his kinda nice and kinda smelly smell. LOL wad ish tht.
Miss his chubby chubby face where I always kiss so hard.
Eeeeee, baby mommy miss you. :)
See you tomorrow aites?
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