唉……
这份无奈，该从何解释？
从好的方面来讲，自然有它的好处。
但是它带来的困扰，远远盖过了它能给的好处。
而且说实在的……我不稀罕。
普普通通的不好吗？
拜托……想想人家的感受再做，行吗？
站在别人的角度上想过了吗？
算了……也该习惯了。来日方长啊。


Thursday is the first month. :D
1st April. Hehe..
Then I can officially "lat sou"!
YAY!
But I still have to take care la. :)
And on the 2nd April will be the dinner.
Can't wait to have fun on that day. :D

I will be going on a trip to Pulau Redang during early May.
Yipee~ But it's a group trip with my hubby's friend.
Not honeymoon trip. sobs..
nvm, sure got chance. heh heh.

ok baby crying write again soon

hehe.
I think this background is so cute. :D
babies...
Ngam sai, I have a baby at home rite now. hoho
7 more days!! ngam ngam one more week.
the aunty will be leaving on the 3rd of April.
2nd april will be my baby's full month day.

haih.. but Im still very fat.
WUWUWUWUWUWUWUWUWWUWU T_T
they say at least 3 months till my body really "shrinks".
My arse is..... T_T
My stomach still looks like I'm 4/5months pregnant.
My thighs looks like elephant leg. my godddddddddd.
urghhhhh.

Anyways,
Can't wait to see you guys on the 2nd :D

<3's

as the title.
I'm a human being,
not some pig,
that u lock up,
and feed me same old rubbish everyday,
and expect me not to get bored of it.

Since a kid,
i couldn't eat much.
The amount of food i eat is fixed.
My stomach is not a flexible balloon.
I'm not a cow, i don't have 5 stomachs.
Besides,
even if i'm hungry,
looking at the same food everyday,
which doesn't have the brightest color,
ruins my appetite.
I'm not a T-rex.
T-rex can't survive without meat.
But now,
i'm not to eat any veges.
I love veges,
i have to eat vege everyday,
if not i don feel right.
I haven eat veges for 3 friggin weeks.

It feels like i'm telling some horror story. -.-
but that aunty keep forcing me,
like urgh...
And she complains to my hubby.
Like i care,
i will eat wat i can eat,
let me repeat this,
i'm not a pig nor a cow.
I'm a human being with limited stomach.
Let me tell u something,
1 more week and i'm a goddess.
Freedom man, FREEDOM!
Free from this hell hole,
halleluyah for my stomach.

Post natal massaging,
I love it and hate it the same time.

I love it because it slims my body down.
I hate it because its frigging pain. -.-

Yesterday that urut lady did kua sa / kuat sha for me.
And now my flabby arm part is all blue black. :S
and few parts of my back oso.
Pain like dunno how to describe when she did that for me.
Now still pain.
The blue blacks I think will be gone 1 week later.
SO CHAM. like kena whack.

haih. write ha write ha very sleepy..
or the alcohols fatt jok? O.o

continue some other time. buay tahan. *yawn*

very paiseh to say,
but I was drunk last nite.
cos I drank one glass of DOM,
then I went doom.

It was 12 something when I first drank the half glass in my room.
Thinking it's the first time trying dowan la drink too much.
Then half glass down,
ady started to feel a little different.
Can't even stand still.
Then that hubby say,
"drink la. nothing one la. drink more good for you. bou ah."
OK lor. since it's at home ma, plus mabuk ady just sleep lor, rite?
So I drank another half glass.
dang dang dang dang "the doomed symphony"

Ahem, I really don wanna remind myself about this,
but those who went to the Pulau Langkawi trip with me before.
Shall know how am I when I'm drunk. *shyLOLWTF*
One glass down, everything became x3 or x4.
And I think I kept asking questions.
Hubby watching his Naruto, I remember him "fu him" me.
And because of the momo incident,
"momo was brought back to his mom's place, forced to"
Hubby say I kept crying because of momo.
seriously I don't remember me crying.
And he did something very inethical to be mentioned here. =.=
Fxck him on tricking me into doing stupid stuffs.
And laugh like an evil ugly frog the next day. =_______=
yes I have a VERY stupid VERY dumb punya hubby.

OH and something really funny I did and remember.
I think I did the same before in Langkawi too.
Maybe I was too noisy,
so the hubby "SHHHHH" at me.
then I keep copy him.
"shhhhh"
"shhhhhhhhh~~"
"SHHHHHH, don't make noise ah~~"
HAHAHAHA.
But I don't know how long I did that.

Lol. really mempersiasuikan lor.
people drink DOM, I drink DOM,
why I drink until liddat one...? haih

But at least I drank.
lalala~
See tonite will get drunk again or not. lol

~<3

Yesterday was the 12th day after I give birth.
Which means it's also the 12th day of my baby boy on earth.
And follow tradition it's a day that we should cook the vinegar pork leg, and the yellow wine chicken to treat the relatives.
And because I didn't give birth naturally,
a lot of foods can only be eaten after the 12th day.
which means not the same old taste every meal again.
Hallelujah. Amitabha. whatsoever prayers they have on earth.
And I also started to drink them alcohols last nite..

AND AND, I didn't wash my hair.
I can still tahan fyi.
AND AND, baby officially got a name.
If u wanna noe ask me privately. :D
AND tommorow I can start the post-natal massaging.
which means I am to get rid of the ugly spare tyre.

Momo is getting out of hospital today.
Kelian de momo. ):
Yam gong.. I'm afraid I will cry when I see him.
Cannot cry. will kena marah one leh. ):

Baby boy is doing fine. :D
Got more "yuk gan" of him day by day.
every morning after me and the hubby wake up,
he sure go carry him and put him on our bed between us.
Hehe. so cuteeeee..

Can't wait for this one month to pass.
Waahahahahha.
For now, I'm kinda confident on taking care of baby.
*ahem* different case la by then. lol *fingerscrossed*
Then we will be officially one warm little cute family..
aww so cute, daddy mommy baby and momo.
LOL WTF. bare with me n my stupid sweet dreams. :D

ok laa. I wanna continue my stupid day dreams.
HEHEHEHEHEHHE.

tata~

forgot to mention about this very very important thing in my previous post.

My MoMo.
I've been missing him since the day I went away from home,
to go to the hospital.
Everytime I think about him,
I will feel like crying.
I was with momo everyday since the day I bought him.
It's been one whole year.
And now separating him away from me makes me feel so sad.
It's not good to keep pets when there's a small baby at home.
Sigh...
Everytime hubby comes back from his mom's place,
I'll be very sure to ask, "how's momo?"

But today,
he went back home to have lunch with his parents,
and he called me and told me this bad news.
Momo has to go for a surgery.
Since months ago momo was suspected to have problems.
His testicles cannot be seen.
And finally today,
hubby's 2nd brother called the vet to come.
And he said momo has to go for a surgery to do sth with the balls.

damn, why should this happen when I'm not with momo?
Do you know how worried was I when receive such news?
I couldn't help my tears.
I mean, it's not serious matter like his gonna die or sth.
But momo's gonna suffer pain. :((((((((((((((((
And I couldn't even hug him or talk to him before he go to the hospital.
I'm his mommy. :( and I failed miserably.

I wonder if he would forget me after one month?
Especially when he's gonna go through such serious matter,
and I'm not there for him.
Doggies have feelings, just like human beings too ya know.
Breaks my heart to think about this.
What if when I get to see him, but he doesn't like me like how he did before?
What if he didn't run to me passionately when I call and jump for me to hug him?
What if he doesn't manja me and sticks to me anymore?
SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...........

JUST SO SAD AND EMO!

Momo I really hope you'll know.
I don't mean to abandon you.
And I'll always love you, like you're one of my baby.
Even though now I couldn't play with you cause your little master is born.
I'll be very sure to bring you back to me when it's time alright?
Please be safe and healthy.
Mommy will be there to pray for you, momo baby. :")

Giving birth is hell of an experience.
But believe me, it's not that pain that i've imagined.
And they say i'm tough. Woots. *eyebrows*
(yes i'm proud of myself coughcough)

Currently waiting to go home.
Can't wait to get myself back home, it's so bored here.
All i can do is sleep, sleep and sleep.
But at least this morning i managed to find something to do.

I couldn't sleep anymore. All i do the previous 2days is just sleep.
So i woke up and walked to the nursery room myself.
Sat there and look at my baby, took the courage to carry him, as i see him struggling in the blanket.
After a while of cuddling and calling him,
For the very first time, my baby opened his eyes big, just to stare at me.
When i say 'hello baby, its mommy here', he looks as if he understands.
Or maybe he heard the voice he's always been listening to.
So he tries to see how does the very familiar 'voice' looks like.
Looking at me, no struggle, no crying, saying hello to me with his eyes.
And i also breast fed him. This time successful.
He really sucked it. Lol. But not geli wor. O.o
but then suck half way, he shitted.
The nurses were busy, changed the diaper for him myself.
Guess i still have some skills left after so many years when my brother was still a baby. *eyebrows*

and i found out,
his lips are definitely not daddy's lips.
While cuddling him, i observed my baby boy carefully. And his lips remind me of my brother's.
And my brother has always been said that he has the exact lips like mine.
So my baby has my lips. :)
oh he has double eyelids too. What else. O.o
his eyes not sure yet. Nose, i dunno how to observe a nose. Lol.
What else? His head?
His head is, big.
And long.
I mean the back side of the head isn't flat.

That's it for today. I'll be writing again soon. Hehe.

yeap.. it's 7.30am in the morning of 3rd march.
getting ready to go to the clinic.
2 hours later my baby will be born.
(and I'll be dead fish.)
I am scared of operation mannnnn.
must be very painful.
I dont need anyone to tell me how it feels.
I can feel the pain rite now. T-T

and for the next 2-3 days..
I'll be lying on the bed, feeling drowsy all the time.
good, it's cause I can sleep.
no good, it's cause i have to sleep in pain. ._.

BAHHH..
IT'LL BE FINE.
STAY STRONG TEOH AI JIA. HA!!!
GAMBATEH! JIA YOU! GAH YAU! FIGHTING! >=]













=S

my last check up.
and it's decided.
I am to perform a C-sect.
Day and time set : 3rd March.

No choice,
Baby haven't gone down.
and it would be dangerous if baby is overdue.
So must get him out before things go bad.

sigh...
A little disappointed,
but what's important is that both mother and child is safe.
So, look at the bright side.
Finally can see how my dearie looks like. :D
eeeee so gan cheong. haha

Anyway,
not in the mood to talk much.
Shall bring everyone good news the day after tomorrow.

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My birthday 09-09-1990.
I'm a wife to my hubby.
A mother of a cute little boy.
I have a naughty little doggie.
These are the family members of my cute little family.♥


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